Relationships

Let me just start off by saying that I have a really

 hard time being in a relationship.

I push and pull away.  

I try as hard as humanly possible to prove that someone is 

unreliable and almost force someone to leave me. 

I try and make a relationship rocky. 

I test and test.

I expect to be abandoned, so it is like I aim for it...or just try and

 make it happen so I don't have to wait for the downfall or falling out. 

Sounds sick...I know, but it is what it is.

I guess it is good I can admit I do it,
but I also need to implement change.

I need to start working on myself and my actions. 

I need to truly appreciate and see what I'm doing.
It is not only unfair to who I'm in a relationship with,
 but it is also unfair to myself.

Gosh I can be a fool.  

Am I...

...the only one that would kill to be in an adult Easter egg hunt? 

via

Oh the sweet memories...

Deary Dear:

Dear Maxwell: You make me so happy when you lay with me. 

Dear Self: You cannot be trusted in a store. 

Accidental shopping at its finest...

Dear Anthropologie: Why must you have the cutest items ever?

Dear Spring: You gave me hope with this flower I spotted

Dear Words: You can be so impactful

Dear Fossil: You kill me. 

Dear Flowers: You can light up my day...and my apartment

Dear Maxwell: You can be the biggest creeper ever

This SUCKS!

My new vacuum, that is!  

I've needed a new vacuum for so long and I FINALLY broke down and bought one. 

Seriously, best purchase ever. 

Maxwell hair: BE GONE! 

I'm not the only one that is thrilled... look at Maxwell...

 ...claiming his spot...

 ...helping me open the box...

...making himself comfortable.

Gosh he makes me smile <3

Life Lately

Lately, my life has been pretty boring. 

Here are some highlights, if you will...

 Halls have given me pep talks

 Crystal and I were reunited <3

Ashley and I met for dinner at Panera Bread...

...followed by an additional 3.5 hours of talking at Barnes and Noble after. 

My cousin and I had a wonderful lunch at a little place in downtown Bethlehem when I went home last weekend. Delish. 

...speaking of going 'home' (aka: Pennsylvania) I had to pump my own gas for the first time in a long time....

I used my mad skills to play some hardcore BINGO.

Hello, my name is Angela and I'm 80 years old.

5 guys burgers and fries. Enough said.

Taking off my gear to endure endless schoolwork. 

Priceless, some may say.

Ultimately it can be defined as boring. 

Sickling

Sorry I haven't updated all week, but I've been placed in quarantine. 

Ha just kidding, but I have been super sick, which is never fun.

Hopefully I'll start feeling better any minute because I visited the doctor...and that's how it works, right?

Spontaneous

Maxwell hates when I leave. ^Exhibit A

This past weekend I made a "spur-of-the-moment" decision to take a trip to Boston to visit some of my favorite ladies, Katie and Alyssa. 

Clearly I waited until the very last minute to pack because I like when I'm under pressure... or something along those lines...

The first night we went out and danced to a great cover band the entire night.  

We love our old school music.  And when rap goes rock we nearly burst at the seams, since it is the bomb diggity and all :)

While driving to the "T" we sang louder than a gospel choir to this little tune right here.  

Bananas.

Night #2: Our photos typically start normal, but 

they never stay that way.

See below as evidence:

Second night out we acted like fools while dancing to Katie and Alyssa's favorite 80s cover band. 

I love having such great friends in my life. 

I'm truly a lucky girl. 

And this, my friends, was another successful trip to Boston <3

Let there be light

Some days I like to see this before starting my day. 

Seems just about right for a Monday :)

Strength

I have been called "strong" by many people in my life.  

I have dealt with more than most people know and more than I'll tell to just anyone.

I've kept my head up for so long.

I've taken the cards I've been dealt and grown from them instead of folding to them.

I keep a smile on my face to hide the pain, but it is always there.

I really try and look on the bright side of all situations. 

I try and enjoy the 'small' things and enjoy life's little gifts.

Sometimes even I crumble. 

I'm only human and I feel pain and I hurt.

I've come to realize that I cannot do it all. I cannot help everyone. I cannot change anyone. I cannot be the reason YOU change.  

I have to stop blaming myself. I have to stop thinking I can be your savior. I have to stop thinking that one day you'll be the person I remember from years ago. 

I have to start putting myself first and healing my scars. 

I just don't know how to do it. 

Hope and love keeps me hanging on, but it breaks my heart into pieces that have never been able to be put back together. 

Here and there and everywhere

Food, coffee, thrifting, Maxwell.  

Yup, that sums it up <3 

Have a good weekend everyone! I'm heading up to BOSTON!

Oreo Truffles

Want to make something delicious AND easy? I found this recipe on pinterest not too long ago and I've been dying to make it. You've got it with these...let me tell you.

One of the easiest things I have ever made and people (aka: Fossil employees) bowed down to me after their first bite. Pretty awesome, I know ;)

Ingredients:

1 package of double stuffed Oreos

4 ounces of cream cheese

Dipping chocolate (any kind you like)

Directions:

1. Put Oreos in food processor until broken up

2. Put some crushed Oreos to the side so you can sprinkle on top later

3. Mix in 4 ounces of softened cream cheese

4. Roll dough into balls and then place in the freezer for 15 minutes

5. Melt chocolate

6. Dip balls into the chocolate and sprinkle with crushed Oreos.

That is all, my friends. Whoever consumes these will thank you ;)

Mmmmmm

Photo-a-day

I'm doing a photo-a-day challenge on instagram. Since I like to share I'm going to post them on here as well (haha):

1. My view driving to my internship. This is Ocean Avenue.
2. Words. Coffee words always mean a lot to me...
My friend just happened to send them to me that morning, so I used them ;)
3. Hands. Trying to stay warm on a brisk morning.
4. A stranger. Yes, I did feel hella creepy taking this.
5. 10am. On a Sunday, 10am always involves coffee, newspaper and relaxation.