Relationships

Let me just start off by saying that I have a really

 hard time being in a relationship.

I push and pull away.  

I try as hard as humanly possible to prove that someone is 

unreliable and almost force someone to leave me. 

I try and make a relationship rocky. 

I test and test.

I expect to be abandoned, so it is like I aim for it...or just try and

 make it happen so I don't have to wait for the downfall or falling out. 

Sounds sick...I know, but it is what it is.

I guess it is good I can admit I do it,
but I also need to implement change.

I need to start working on myself and my actions. 

I need to truly appreciate and see what I'm doing.
It is not only unfair to who I'm in a relationship with,
 but it is also unfair to myself.

Gosh I can be a fool.  

Am I...

...the only one that would kill to be in an adult Easter egg hunt? 

via

Oh the sweet memories...

Deary Dear:

Dear Maxwell: You make me so happy when you lay with me. 

Dear Self: You cannot be trusted in a store. 

Accidental shopping at its finest...

Dear Anthropologie: Why must you have the cutest items ever?

Dear Spring: You gave me hope with this flower I spotted

Dear Words: You can be so impactful

Dear Fossil: You kill me. 

Dear Flowers: You can light up my day...and my apartment

Dear Maxwell: You can be the biggest creeper ever