Let me just start off by saying that I have a really
hard time being in a relationship.
I push and pull away.
I try as hard as humanly possible to prove that someone is
unreliable and almost force someone to leave me.
I try and make a relationship rocky.
I test and test.
I expect to be abandoned, so it is like I aim for it...or just try and
make it happen so I don't have to wait for the downfall or falling out.
Sounds sick...I know, but it is what it is.
I guess it is good I can admit I do it,
but I also need to implement change.
but I also need to implement change.
I need to start working on myself and my actions.
I need to truly appreciate and see what I'm doing.
It is not only unfair to who I'm in a relationship with,
but it is also unfair to myself.
It is not only unfair to who I'm in a relationship with,
but it is also unfair to myself.
Gosh I can be a fool.
i think we all go through a faze like that, i know i did for a while, and i had to stop and think what was i doing, once you figure out how to change, even if you start with something small you will see a big improvement.
ReplyDeleteYou're young and have plenty of time to work on changing this. You should know it is normal - so don't feel bad about it. If there is something you don't like, change it, it's within your power! Good Luck - change is hard!
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